MATT 18:1-5At that time the disciples came to Jesus and said, “Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” 2 And He called a child to Himself and set him before them, 3 and said, “Truly I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Whoever then humbles himself as this child, he is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 And whoever receives one such child in My name receives Me."
I have been under so much stress lately. My dad, school, unemployment; it has all be overwhelming at times. I realized that I spend so much time being caught up in all of my problems, in the problems of the world, that I often lose sight of what is really important. God. Christ. Jesus. Sure I know that He is there, but sometimes I forget that He is above and outside of all of my problems, and if I would just let go for a moment, and allow myself to totally and unconditionally trust Him, like a child trusts his father and mother, then I might... just might... experience a moments peace.
And speaking of trusting like children, my own children play a role in all of this. Since my depression started setting in a year or so ago, it has been hard on the kids. I am occasionally volatile, and will obsess over the smallest things, allowing them to turn into a raging storm. And there have been times where my kids have born the brunt of this rage. But when it is over, and the clouds have passed, they come back to me and tell me that they love me. They love me, no matter what. Like God loves me, no matter what. +Lord, I pray I never take that for granted.+
For more information on the practise of Lectio Divina, please visit:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lectio_Divina
Or, a video introduction to the practise by one of my favourite priests:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2DxaGZqprrs
+In nomine patri, et filii, et spiritus sancti, Amen+
